Life — Oh, How Thou Hath Changed!

Where do I begin?

At the beginning of this year I found myself struggling quite a bit with where I was in life.  I was not happy and really wondered if this was all that life would really amount to be for me.  I hated my job, resented the people I worked with, was tired of the same ‘ole same ‘ole but still managed to smile and not dwell on the negative but I knew there was something missing.

I rekindled an old relationship around March of this year that began taking me down a totally new and exciting path.  I met this man a few years back and due to us being in two different places at that time in our lives things didn’t really work out.  Fast forward a few years and here we were again — talking and soon thereafter back in a relationship.  This time was different.  This time he was stepping up.  He now lived in Florida and invited me down to visit.  In May I visited and while there he invited me to come live permanently.  I went through several days of anxiety at the thought of moving away from my family and friends but decided that if I could find a job in Florida then I would give moving a shot.  I had been in Maryland since high school and was not going anywhere career wise.

So, I began looking for a job.  The company I worked for had recently partnered with a large Bio-Pharmaceutical company and something in the back of my mind said “go to their website and check out the career section”.  It was there that I found what I felt would be the perfect job for me.  The skills required aligned perfectly with mine, the company culture aligned perfectly with the type of place I envisioned working in, and there were opportunities to learn more.  I applied.  A few days later I received an email requesting a phone interview for the position.  After speaking with the recruiter, I knew that I really wanted this job I just had to make it through interviewing with the hiring manager.  At the same time that this was going on, I began packing up my house anticipating that I would be moving soon either to Florida or into a home of my own since I had finally been approved for a home loan.

It wasn’t long after my conversation with the recruiter that I received a phone call stating that the hiring manager would like to conduct a phone interview with me.  My nerves began to kick in and although I was excited I was still trying to hold it together because I couldn’t believe that I was really moving forward in the interview process.  The hiring manager and I spoke a few days later and at the end of the conversation I did something that I had never done before and that was ask if what he thought about my candidacy.  I was nervous to hear the answer but to my surprise he stated “I really like you and I would like to invite you down to interview”.  WOW!!  I was so shocked and a few days later I was on a plane on my way to Florida — compliments of the company I was interviewing with.

To Be Continued…

I am NOT a Blogger…But I am Trying!

I am sitting here trying to figure out what to blog about and how to begin blogging.  I have come to the realization that I am not a blogger.  My life is not overwhelmingly interesting, I don’t do much, and I am not sure that I have any decent advice to offer anyone.  Despite all of that, I am interested in learning the art of blogging and hopefully sticking to it this time around.  Yes, I have started blogs before but the novelty wore off rather quickly.  With that said, please allow me to introduce myself…

My name is Toni, not short for anything, just Toni.  I am stubborn, opinionated, and abrasive at times but I am also incredibly sensitive with a heart of gold that has been broken more than I care to admit so that side of me remains well hidden and is only shown to a select few.  I am 30 something, single, with one adult child and one teenager.  I have NO idea what my purpose in life is and that is incredibly frustrating because I feel like I should know it by now.  I love baby animals, I can’t grow plants to save my life, and I spend most of my free time in the gym.  The one really big thing that I would like to change about myself is that I am a pessimist (sadly) and have an extremely difficult time looking at the bright side of things.  I have read a lot of books, articles, and blogs on the Law of Attraction but I still don’t get it.

At this point, I have no real purpose for this blog at the moment so I apologize in advance for the randomness that may come about.  My hope is that this blog will evolve and become something great like so many of the blogs that I read.

Until Next Time,

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